||[Mar. 20th, 2005|08:22 am]
i hate it when I feel like my life is better when im on drugs. ive been sobering up, trying to convince myself that life is fucking wonderful, considering that Im healthy, pretty much, and even though Im fat and ugly, I have all my arms and legs and a roof over my head.|
But these daily battles with myself drive me mad.
Where's the common ground?
Just when I think I find it.................
I wonder if my drug use has fucked up my chemical balance? Ive opened my mind, but is it only the people who use drugs that have an open mind?
Everyone else just seems to be a religious freak ~!!
Sorry its early. Maybe Im a little mental.